To loving yourself, to trusting yourself, to knowing that you’re not alone, that you’re safe, you’re seen, you’re supported and provided for, always.
Feeling safe from what?
Feeling safe from the thunder & lightning of a storm, from any creepy, crawly animals that scare you, feeling safe from the milkman or postman ( if you’re my generation ) or from the onslaught of aliens, monsters, vampires, the devil or bad witches as seen on our smarts TVs.
Feeling safe from the closest people that live around you, yes, those people that supposed to keep you safe, care for you, nurture and love you unconditionally.
We are indeed most scared of them. Their unpredictable moods, their vicious tempers, their calculated manipulations and personal attacks upon us.
We are scared of feeling unloved, unworthy, separated, forgotten, betrayed and belittled in any form. We are masters, however, of denial and very skillful in ‘protecting’ ourselves. We build ‘invisible walls’ around us, that no one, including ourselves, can see. They are thick & heavy, deep & dark.
We are hopeful that all those feelings will go away or can never be found again…..until they keep showing up over & over, again.
All our efforts to hide them is in vain.
And then, we’re hopeful again, because, we are such masters of ‘protection’ and we become very effective in presenting to others, what it is that they want to see, hear and feel.
As for us, we choose to live in survival mode, we’re fighting a constant inner struggle with others, the world and ourselves. We are loosing the battle….